How will I get through another day?

Sometimes I wonder, "How will I get through another day?"

It is at these times that I catch myself walking out the door down the long drive outside. I have walked this walk hundreds of times since my late husband passed away in '06. At these times, when I feel most vulnerable, exhausted, and plum used up, I look up to the heavens and catch myself muttering, pleading, "God, be enough ... please God, just be enough!"

I never feel the earth rumble under my feet. I don't hear a voice in my head telling me everything will be okay. I don't feel satisfied or that anything has changed. Yet, somehow, there is a release when I cry out to him. I let out a long breath in a sigh, look up at the house, and brace myself for the next chapter of my life.

One thing this little ritual has done for me, is allowed me to throw all of my sorrows, my worries and woes, to a something that is out there, that is much bigger than you or I. That something is a person, of sorts, that I have grown very close to and very fond of. I call him my Lord. He is my heavenly father, my Lord Jesus, and the Holy Spirit, all wrapped up in an entity that I choose to call God.

How sweet it is to realize that I don't have to carry my own burdens. When I just don't know what else to do, I do what I do best and should always do first ... I roll it over to him. He is enough, by golly! He is that substance of things I know exists, though I can no more see it than I can the air that I breathe or the heart that beats within my own body. Yet, not seeing these things doesn't mean they are not real. In fact I must believe, I choose to believe, that he cares for me, he loves me, and that he is assuredly enough!

Friday, November 16, 2012

When we serve others, give and do, think of others and put them before ourselves, we are “doing” the Word. We spend our time, our efforts, our energy into loving others and loving the Lord. We worship the Lord by the way we live our lives before others. When we spend all our resources on others or on business (busy-ness) and responsibilities, we can easily run out of energy and resources to care for ourselves. Exhaustion sets in, as well as an opportunity for a bad attitude to creep in. When this happens, we then feel guilty and get bitter, which tends to undo all the good we have done. The Lord gave us an admonition, "Let us not grow weary in well-doing, for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not." When we use our cell phone, we can communicate with our loved ones, take care of business, and tend to errands that we’d otherwise have to take care of on foot. When that phone runs out of juice, it is good for nothing! We’ve got’ta plug that li ttle handheld wonder into a power source on a daily basis for it to retain power. Hmmm, how come we can’t see that we must do the same thing? The source of our power is none other than our Lord! He gives us energy, and He allows us to help with the work He places before us, much like a cellphone helps us with ours. Get the picture? We must REST in Him … much like a phone simply does nothing for a certain period of time so it can revamp and get fully charged! Words of encouragement for you whom are weary today … "Come to Me, all [you] who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28 "Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. Matthew 11:29 "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 The LORD God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer's [feet], And He will make me walk on my high hills. Habakkuk 3:19 But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew [their] strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31

Monday, November 5, 2012

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful, beyond measure. We ask ourselves, “Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous.” Actually, who are you, not to be?
What if there was another world out there, full of creatures that we have yet to discover? Some beautiful beyond anything that we have ever beheld in this world. Some grotesque, more so than you can possibly imagine! What if there was another dimension, which holds such creatures, right here on this planet? The creatures I speak of are invisible creatures that one cannot see with mortal eyes, yet they are as tangible as the air we breathe, the wind that invisibly blows the clouds and tosses leaves about in the autumn of the year. Does life, other than that of the three-dimensional sort, exist? I have an embroidered sampler that is hung adoringly in my home. It’s a very simple piece of art, but its meaning holds depth that touches the soul. It reads like this: “I believe in the sun even if it does not shine. I believe in love even if I do not feel it. I believe in God even if he is silent.” I believe in a dimension that we cannot see. I believe in life after death. I believe in God.

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Confined in this body of flesh: On the inside of me, in my heart, my soul, my mind, are infinite possibilities. I feel as if I could fly ... emotionally, mentally, spiritually. Yet there are so many limitations to this flesh we carry around ... So in order to "fly" and be free, our minds must soar out of this mediocre complacent existence in which we are encased! We must create, sing, dance, paint, play, jump, laugh ... to enjoy life, to experience life, to it's fullest! I believe there is another dimension, which we may hear about with our ears, read about with our eyes, sense with our whole being, but cannot seem to reach while here in this flesh. Or can we? Today, I feel not as an eagle, but as a little bug that can be eaten ... yet, I must live beyond my feelings. It is not within us to soar each morning … we must CHOOSE to soar! In Him, we may. He has given us this ability. I can stay pressed down ... giving in to complacency and mediocrity ... or I can choose to soar. It is my choice! Wow! It is a freeing thing to realize that we serve an amazing God that allows us to map out our own flight plan. We can choose to carry baggage or fly light! Is the factor of carrying pure trust not the only way to fly free? Forgiveness is key! We must accept HIS forgiveness, accept Him … and than choose to live the way he lives. In that, I mean we too must choose to love, walk in forgiveness, and be not entangled with the yoke of bondage, which so easily ensnares us. Bondage holds us down. Bondage comes with un-forgiveness. When we choose to forgive, we choose Christ. When we choose to hold a grudge, we choose flesh. Flesh leads to flesh … a blob … selfishness … depression … unnecessary heaviness. When we are heavy with flesh … worry … self … un-forgiveness … we are too heavy to fly! Too much baggage! So today, for just today … I choose to shake off the bonds of flesh. I choose to walk in forgiveness. I choose to trust. I choose Him! I will fly, maybe for only a moment … but when I learn to fly, then I can learn to soar … then I am free from the bondage of sin! Free to soar! Today, I choose to soar! Come with me … let’s fly, light, free … Can you? Will you? It’s your choice!
Life offers chance and ability to climb to the top … or we can make the choice to wallow in the clay. What may happen to our life is not the essence of chance or blame, but by the doing of choice to climb, no matter what our limitation!